I Don't Want To

Doesn't life sometimes get in the way of living? I often struggle with this because I would rather be doing anything other than what I am supposed to be doing. There is nothing like that strong desire to organize your closet or clean the house when there is a research paper to write. And what a great time to catch up with friends and family! I think that I will makeover my exercise routine. I'm going to spend time with God all day today. My car really needs to be washed.

I still haven't figured this out yet, but I attribute much of the problem to the "I don't want to" mentality. It doesn't matter what it is I should do-- "I don't want to." My rational side more than not wins and my creativity is stifled once again. Thus explains my love/ hate relationship with writing. I love to do it, but I hate to do it when I have to. Haven't I grown out of this yet?

Today is one of those days. I am not working today so that I can work on my research paper that is due next week. And to make matters better, the paper is on Wordsworth or Coleridge--the Romantic Giants in Poetry. Nothing could be better....

Except shopping. Or maybe starting a great non-school book. I could make a scrapbook. Or I still have that blank canvas upstairs waiting to be painted. It sure is a nice day for a walk. Maybe I can run errands for my husband...