When we let God have control over our life—our bodies, our future, our relationships, our thoughts, our everything—only then can we really have any self-control because we are allowing God to control the self. God knows how true this is for me. I strive and try and basically wear myself out trying to control my stubborn, lustful and evil flesh. Every good thing that I do and every evil thing that I avoid is because of God and God alone. His lovingkindness is who he is. He can not help but love me with kindness and mercy and forgiveness. He knows that we are made of dust. Thank God that we have a God in heaven who is in control and knows these things.
But there is another who also knows that we are made of dust and slip easily because of our desires and pride. I hate him. He is after our souls.
I have never loved God so much as after I got married—how He answered my prayer for a precious husband. But I have never hated the devil so much as I do know as I have seen him try and destroy my marriage. I never knew lonely, insecure, ugly, fat and crazy like I did when I first got married because the devil hated my marriage and still does. I thought that I could fix feeling these ways and that I was in control.
