Sunday, January 31, 2010

On My Mind

Yesterday I got really down on myself for not doing the things that I love more. What I really hate is that I have discounted the things that I truly love and enjoy as unimportant and a waste of time. What a tragedy. That is why I am revamping my blog and committing to just write more.

Here are some things that I have been thinking about a lot lately:

1. Beth Moore's book, So Long Insecurity. It is so crazy to see how many women struggle with insecurity. That is worse than a tragedy. It is a huge catastrophe that we women are living with everyday. It is the cancer of our society that is stealing our joy. It is the devil, plain as night. Lord, help us.

2. Studying for my TExES teacher certification test for High School Language Arts. This is actually a pleasant experience because I really believe that communication and literature are vital to enriching life for students.

3. What is will be like to be a parent and furthermore, what would it be like to adopt a kid. I really do want a big family, God permitting.

4. Painting a canvas for the bathroom. Right now I just put a wash of color (blue, yellow, green and white) on it which looks like water a la Monet. I really wanted to put an orchid on it, but now I am afraid to cover it up. TBC...

5. How much I really hate going to the gym and working out. The gym is so depressing to me. I love how I feel afterwards and I love having muscle definition, but I really hate the process of it. I like to go for walks/jogs, clean, dance and sit on the stationary bike with a good book and forget about everything else.

6. The scary dream I had last night after watching The Unborn with Ashton. Not only was it a waste of time, I had a nightmare that my mom's house was possessed. It was like we were under attack and there was nothing we could do.

7. How much I love Colossians 3:1-17.

Until next time...
hopefully tomorrow.